website I spend a lot of time on Twitter and whilst checking hashtags and having a general browse down my feed I always seem to see the same phrases, or iterations of them, crop up:
- She’s just jealous that he does this for a living
- He’s so bitter about her being a full time blogger
- Every blogger wants to blog for a job, they are so jealous of the career bloggers
Now, I am jealous of many things; Alice Glass’ voice for one, Karen O’s amazing style and Stephen Fry’s absolute knowledge – all things that I will never have because they are talents/skills that are not tangible. I am never jealous of something that is obtainable for me. Should I wish to, I could have all the things the ‘full time bloggers’ have, if I lost some weight and plastered a constant smile on my face I reckon my blog could do pretty well – which is one of the reason I am not jealous.
The fact of the matter is that I don’t actually want to be a full time blogger… I know, shock and gasps all round right?! My life isn’t brilliant but I kinda like it. My job can be annoying and the people can be a drain on my patience, but I like it. Yes, having to get dressed each morning and venture into the office can be tiresome, but I like it. Sometimes, when I read full time bloggers posts about how hard it is working from home and being their own boss I want to get the world’s smallest violin out and throw it at them repeatedly… I read them after having gotten up at 5.30am – 6.00am, battled with the wind and rain at the bus stop waiting for a bus that shows up 20 minutes late. After having being in the office from 8.15am – 5.30pm, after having my lunch break consist of me running to Tesco before being sat back at my desk 15 minutes later and working through the 45 minutes left of my lunch. After listening to another snotty colleague talk down to me and demand things. Then when I think it’s all over and the clock strikes 5.30pm I realise I have so much to do and have to work late, before heading home to run a household, blog and work on side projects.
However, I know that every job, even one you love and where you are your own boss, becomes tiresome and a chore at times. I know that those full time bloggers have to deal with other issues, such as loneliness and isolation. Working in an office I don’t have those same issues to deal with. Having different daily grinds doesn’t make their issues any less than mine, and we all love to moan about work/school/uni.
But, I don’t want those issues. I am happy with my current issues. I don’t want to be a full time blogger because this is a hobby for me; granted, it’s a hobby I put a lot in to and more or less do full time, but a hobby none the less. I don’t want to have the stress of earnings and meetings suck all the joy from something I adore doing. I fully believe I can carry on making my blog a success by keeping it as a hobby, I believe I can rival some full time bloggers whilst still keeping my full time ‘normal’ job. I know I can do this without being at it full time.
And do you know what? It’s OK that I don’t want to be a full time blogger, and it’s OK that Tracy the fashion blogger does want to be. She is not jealous of me, and I am not jealous of her. Bloggers need to stop assuming that everyone wants to be the next big thing and spend all day blogging in their pyjamas; because yes, the above quotes are all from other bloggers. Full time blogging isn’t for everyone, and not everyone wants it. I like to know where my next wage slip is coming from and how much I will have to live on for the month. I like going in to an office (on most days) and I love having something that isn’t all about me and my blog.
I love and cherish not just being ‘Tea Party Beauty’.